Lots of people get angry at God but then try to hide it from Him.
And let’s face it, we know deep down that anger at God isn’t the answer. Whatever our situation, it’s not His fault.
God knows if you’re feeling angry at Him. So you may as well go ahead and tell Him about it.
“I know I’m not supposed to feel this way but I do.” If you are angry at God, you’re not the first. . .
The book of Psalms is basically the songbook of the Bible. Psalmists got angry at God. (Read Psalm 44).
Jonah got really angry at God–angry enough that he asked God to kill him.
“This change of plans greatly upset Jonah, and he became very angry. 2 So he complained to the Lord about it: ‘Didn’t I say before I left home that you would do this, Lord? That is why I ran away to Tarshish! I knew that you are a merciful and compassionate God, slow to get angry and filled with unfailing love. You are eager to turn back from destroying people. 3 Just kill me now, Lord! I’d rather be dead than alive if what I predicted will not happen.’” (Jonah 4:1-3)
God could have said “okey dokey” and simply killed Jonah for his rebellion, stubbornness, and ignorance. He had that ability. And He certainly had the moral high ground. But instead, Jonah and God–at God’s initiative–had a conversation about Jonah’s anger. Twice in Jonah 4 (verses 4 and 9) God asks Jonah “Is it right for you to be angry about this?” (“This” was God’s mercy toward the Ninevites; a people group that Jonah hated but God loved and wanted to extend mercy to). And we can learn something really important from that:
Take your anger to God. Don’t hide from Him what He knows you are feeling anyway. Have the conversation with Him. It doesn’t matter that He’s always ultimately right. He wants to work through your anger together.
I’ve been angry at God when I saw people that lived incredibly godly lives taken away from their children in the prime of life. Or when I saw ungodly people live carefree and easy lives while those who exhausted themselves to serve God and people suffered unfairly.
I don’t have answers for all of the “why?” questions you and I have for God. But I do know this: The number of times He has answered prayer concretely, spectacularly, and even quickly, far outweighs the number of questions marks He has left in my mind. I simply take for granted or forget the endless string of answered prayers, and focus in on the few situations that I don’t understand.
Have the conversation with God about how you feel.